Personally, I'm someone who enjoys running off of a to-do list. I love seeing a full calendar packed with things to do and there really is a sweet satisfaction to crossing something off my list as 'complete'. Yet, I can't help but think how my to-do list almost got in the way of what God had planned for me last weekend. I ended up gaining so much more than anticipated by abandoning my to-do list and was pleasantly surprised this weekend, which to me is the epitome of serendipity.
I never IMAGINED that I could learn so much in a short amount of time. I never imagined that I could grow to love 12 complete strangers in the span of 5 days. That so much could change in less than a week.
But I did, and it happened at Belle Glade Student Week.
...books change you. They mess up your insides. They make you drool over the prospect of being a better human and a better lover and a better friend. They pull at your stomach and leave you raw and open and naked. Books can straight up mangle you and sometimes it’s just better if you let them do their work. - Hannah Brencher
Not the sexiest of terms to be honest. By definition, a servant is someone who performs duties for others, a devoted and helpful follower. Doesn't really hold much weight and in the hierarchy of positions, it's generally at the bottom. Yet it's exactly where I need to be.
So I have been having a bit of an emotional week. Considering I'm not THAT emotional of a person, my emotions have me a bit exhausted. Unfortunately, I can't escape pain and instead of naively thinking I can pray the pain away, I need to embrace that pain happens and that I'll need strength and peace to endure.
I earnestly believe that we all genuinely have the heart to want to study and get into the Word but when we crack open the Bible, we get lost. From past experience, when I tried to read the bible on my own, in a version I didn't understand, without a plan and try to understand, it never worked. Here's part two of Understanding the Bible.